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  Remembering Tomorrow

  Remembering Tomorrow

  By Michael McGowan

  Copyright 2013 Michael McGowan

  Thank you very much for downloading this collection. To me, this is a reflection on the past year, both personal and observational.

  1.Journeyman

  2.Hymn for the hopeless

  3.Planetary siege

  4.North star lost

  5.I am…

  6.Remember tomorrow

  7.Burning heart, icy lungs

  8.Like clockwork

  9.A step too far to return

  10.Shaping shadows

  11.It’s okay to be afraid of love

  12.As all things end

  1.Journeyman

  This is the last time

  I’ll be at this crossroad

  Shattered and hopeless

  I walk it all the same

  This path I walk on

  Might be old and broken

  But I’m not forgotten

  For you know my name

  These thick rusty nails

  Have left these scars

  Stories on the skin

  Of where I have been

  I’ve survived this hell

  And adjusted to morality

  How can I be the same?

  When I’ve felt the flame

  Despite the horrors I’ve seen

  I’d rather go back there

  What is there to prove?

  I’ve been around here

  For far too long and now

  The love has truly died out

  Rights have become wrongs

  And they’re out for me

  This way of life will remove

  Any remorse I held near

  Shall be wept in the tear

  That you shed for me

  Not because I’m free

  But because I’m gone

  2.Hymn for the hopeless

  You’ve let your dreams die again

  And it’s getting too much

  It breaks my heart to know

  That you would think as such

  To give up on everything

  And settle for nothing

  To risk it all for a thrill,

  A vacancy that can’t be filled

  You would protest to say

  The many reasons why

  You’ve ended up this way

  Why would you lie?

  Now the truth cuts deeper

  The truth is judgemental

  It casts a long shadow

  Over everything sentimental

  We are immersed in grey

  The colour has been drained

  The stars have burnt and died

  Your friends beg for you to stay

  But we both know that

  Goodbye is the only way

  3.Planetary siege

  I look to the night sky in times of sadness

  The idea of not being alone in the galaxy

  Gives me solace while being here alone

  I will take off one day, free from the stress

  I’ll reach for the stars, though no one believes me

  And ill explore every rock, every stone

  Until I find a place where I know I belong

  And find the ones that make me strong

  I’ll tell stories of the galaxies

  And the wide open seven seas

  While they put me back right

  Using small sturdier pieces

  And the ideals of light

  There will be no more mistaking

  This heart you’ve been breaking

  4.North star lost

  This life is a shipwreck, which is lost at sea

  A forgotten thought forever undiscovered

  All I ask for is one more chance

  To just discover who I really am

  Test your faith, push it far

  Don’t be afraid to be who you are

  There is so much left to say

  That I will keep with me

  Through the darkest days

  And the clearest nights

  There is no relief, no remorse

  That could ever set me free

  I swim in tragedy

  Pushing us to the peak

  With waves of apathy

  Unsettled and bleak

  Where do I go from here?

  How do I escape my fear?

  Where can I start again?

  When can I keep you near?

  5.I am…

  I am the good man

  I am the foundation

  I am the good friend

  I am the trusting

  I am the willing

  I am the promises

  I am the hero

  I am the power

  I am the two-faced

  I am the liar

  I am the corrupt

  I am your leader

  I am your future

  I am your sadness

  I am your problem

  6.Remember tomorrow

  I remember when they used to say

  Live life as if it were the last day

  This world could end tomorrow

  And you’d be left with the sorrow

  Full of hope, full of faith and glee

  We would see the morning’s dawn

  Turn away from the evenings dusk

  A day of happiness and memories

  A day with only the close families

  Oh how things change in a moment

  They say you better pray

  Or burn out and fade away

  I scream up towards the sky

  Don’t ever help me please

  Because rather die on my feet

  Than live a second on my knees

  Those nice memories can’t stay

  They belong back in yesterday

  I won’t preach that god

  Has changed my ways

  I can atone for my actions

  But a price I will not pay

  Because I found out

  That ‘hate’ turns cold

  This puts out the fire

  That burns my soul

  The happy ring of roses

  Combust like when Moses

  Looked at the burning bush

  And took down orders in a rush

  Rules for a religion to live by

  This is why I say goodbye

  Rules shouldn’t rule over me

  Just manners and decency

  So I won’t change

  The pain can stay

  I’m forever stuck

  In my ‘evil ways’

  7.Burning heart, icy lungs

  She said with a sudden surge of emotion

  There can’t be love without commotion

  No trust to be earned without devotion

  This then set the moment in motion

  A passionate fire burned in her eyes

  As sinister words rolled off the tongue

  ‘I need to know how to feel alive’

  And just like that, we were done

  I threw my heart into the sun

  And I shared my pain with no one

  I curled up into a tiny ball

  And kept the hurt bottled up inside

  My skin feels like stone cold grey

  I kept still and shook where I lay

  As words resonated in my mind

  I realised, that this was how to feel alive

  8.Like clockwork

  I trade blows with the man in the mirror

  His grieve stricken face still haunts me

  He gave up everything and lost it all

  So there must be truth to this rumour

  That he worked ‘til his hands said stop
r />   Made his way and hoped to survive

  Today’s hard felt stubborn monotony

  To earn his one shot at getting to the top

  His family of three, mum brother and me

  Began to cry in his long absences

  Though he wasn’t home it drive us apart

  Knowing where he would continue to be

  Days turned to weeks and weeks to years

  His skin began to wrinkle and wither

  Too long had he waited for his chance

  That now his ending was soon to be near

  While he kept on, forever working hard

  His kids had grown up and gone for good

  And raised loving children of their own

  When he took his ID from the lanyard

  He took one more look around

  At the place he had slaved at

  And picked up a box, dark brown

  Before leaving without a sound

  9.A step too far to return

  For too long you have stood out of reach, now it’s time to return

  I’ve watched you slip away into the darkest oblivion

  I reach out to pull in and bring you back from the brink

  One day this will be a lesson that everyone needs to learn

  I’ll put my life on the line for you because I know that you would too

  Some things are better off forgotten in places that we can’t discover

  Everyone deserves a second chance to rewrite how their story ends

  But we wonder into the depths of our past to try and relive it

  And re awaken the hateful monsters we didn’t want to uncover

  When we lose the power to speak, we let others shout our words

  We shall unite as one. This is who we are, this is our reality

  we shall get through this together, because we are a family

  10.Shaping shadows

  Cries echo unforgivingly in the night

  The streets flood with their tears

  As the blood drips from our hands

  And the youth die in the sands

  We are faced with our darkest fear

  Aligned with our own self-defeat

  The reaper would be lost without us

  And the atrocities we openly commit

  If you could find your hope in a crowd

  Of familiar faces that you’ve let down

  Then you could have a way to be okay

  If I could gather the strength a hundred times

  Then perhaps I could have made a better life

  But I must live with choice I made anyway

  When I reach my bitter end, eventually

  Please rewrite the words upon my grave

  Preach the word of my horror story

  Tell of the lives that I couldn’t save

  Tell the world how they’ll haunt me

  And if they listen, tell them I’m sorry

  11.It’s okay to be afraid of love

  There’s a world wake in your smile

  That sends chills down my spine

  And in that brief moment I know

  That I will never want to go home

  My wounds start to fade away

  And I know that it will be fine

  So long as this day isn’t wasted

  I might not feel like I’m so alone

  The way the sun shines on you

  Hypnotises all sense of reason

  It blinds my rose tinted eyes

  Keeping me sweet and in line

  But now the clouds come in

  And wash away your fake face

  To expose a truth I’ve known

  That you were never mine

  I’m so lost now without you

  Time won’t let me move on

  My heart can’t accept that

  To you, love was a game

  I was one of many pawns

  That you freely manipulated

  I feel sick to my stomach

  I will never be the same

  I can hear the people asking

  Just where the hell I am

  But I am not on this earth

  I have vanished in the night

  There’s too many people crying

  But I’ve taken off into the sky

  Up from the low rocky ground

  And embraced the holy light

  12.As all things end.

  As this time comes to an end

  I wonder how I’ll be remembered

  Will you see me as kind hearted?

  Will you see me as a friend?

  I gave my heart for something more

  To better myself and live my dream

  I put my trust in those close to me

  Something I haven’t done before

  And as a result I lost those mean

  But kept the few that I truly adore

  Life can be lonely, life can be cruel

  It won’t hesitate to make you a fool

  Life will break the strongest spirit

  ‘Til you don’t know what to do with it

  However friends keep you sane

  The blinking light in the abyss

  The fake ones move on elsewhere

  Whereas the real ones will remain

  Through your darkest hour there

  A presence that any soul will miss

  Read these words, nice and clear

  I will forever keep you near

  And for what we’ve been through

  All I can say is… Thank you.